Eve's Diary

My head is spinning. I hardly know where to start. This day started out so perfectly—like every other day we’ve ever had. As we always do, Adam and I got up early to take a walk with God. Those walks have always been the highlight of our day.
This morning, no one said anything for a while. We just enjoyed being together…It was such a sweet time—it always was when the three of us were together.
I don’t know how to explain what happened next.
All of a sudden, I heard a voice I had never heard before. I turned and there, looking right at me, was the most beautiful creature I had ever seen. He talked directly to me. He made me feel important and I found myself wanting to hear what he’ had to say. I detached from Adam and followed the creature, as he spoke swiftly to me.
I am not sure what happened next. I think I just kind of forgot God was there. In fact, for a while, I forgot about Adam. I felt as if I were alone with this dazzling, mysterious creature.
The conversation that followed is indelibly etched in my mind.
He asked me questions—questions I‘d never thought about before. Then he offered me some things I had never heard before —from God and Adam. Normally in position —I had always looked up to God and Adam; this creature said they would look up to me. I would be independent. Knowledge — of mysteries known only to God.  Permission—to eat the fruit in the middle off the garden.
First, I just listened and looked. In my heart, I pondered, I questioned I debated. Adam had reminded me many times that God had said we must not eat the fruit from that tree. Am not sure if I knew why but I clearly remembered he told me severally. The creature kept looking into my eyes and talking in that soothing voice. I found myself believing him. It felt so right. May be Adam did not know about this, I thought. Finally, I surrendered. I reached out—cautiously at first, then more boldly, I took. I ate. I handed it to Adam. He ate. We ate together —first me, then him. I didn’t have to say much. He trusted me so much. I was His woman.
Those next moments are a blur.
Sensation deep inside that I have never had before. New awareness—like I know a secret I’m not supposed to know. Elation and depression—at the same time. Liberation. Prison. Rising. Falling. Confident. Afraid. Ashamed. Dirty.
Hiding—I can’t let Him see me like this.
Alone. So, very alone. Lost. Depressed. Deceived.

Eve
Excerpt from the Book "Lies Women Believe" by Nancy Leigh DeMoss: Highly recommended Book, slightly edited